Recurring Dream

I keep having this recurring dream.
It began these last few weeks as I near the end of my pregnancy.
I keep dreaming that in the middle of the night, when the Alex is off at work that my water breaks.
I have never had my water break at home and the only time it really broke on it’s own without the help of my pushing was when I was already at the hospital preparing to be induced with Zack. I have never had to have my bag of water broken by the doctor or nurse.
This time it is really freaking me out.
I am absolutely terrified that my water will break at home and I will not make it to the hospital in time to have Ellie.
You see, I tend to labor rapidly.
My last labor, with Alexander, I hit 10 centimeters, gave a little push in which my water broke and he came out all at once….still in the fetal position.
What worries me even more about my water breaking at home is the fact that Ellie still seems to be in the breech position. I am hoping to find out if she is for sure at our appointment of Friday. For me, it does not feel like her position has changed based on the kicks and punches I feel.
Ellie isn’t making this fear go away either.
The way she moves around and the amount of pressure I feel in my pelvis all the time I am certain my water will break at home, in the middle of the night and I will have to call and wake my parents up to have one of them come get the kids and the other take me to the hospital.
The last thing I want is to have to deliver this little lady in my living room or worse, en route to the hospital!
Keep your fingers crossed for a good update after our appointment Friday and pray she has flipped!!!

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