Here I am at the 7 week (almost 8) mark of having a newborn.  There are now 5 kids in my house, 3 of them are 5 and under, needless to say, I’m being pulled in every direction possible.

I am stressed.

Beyond stressed.

I am depressed.

Beyond depressed.

Having 5 kids to take care of on my own while the Alex is working is far from easy and it’s even harder when you are extremely sleep deprived and exhausted.

I am doing my best to get through the days and deal with it on my own the best I can.  I refuse to medicate the depression because I breastfeeding and there really isn’t a safe medication I can take while nursing.

I can say that I cry more now than I ever have before. 

Having a baby who cries a lot, needs to eat a lot, wants to be held a lot means I don’t get a lot of down time and there is very little sleeping happening…..for me that is.

I am hoping that as the days, weeks, and months go by that things get better because the last thing I want to do is have Alex switch shifts because I’m miserable.

Keep your fingers crossed for me that things will improve!

Thanks!

XOXO